It was one sunny sunday when I went out on my own just to have a walk. I enjoy my life, my work but sometimes whenever I think of all my worries in all aspects of my life:financial, emotional and even my love life lol it makes crazy just thinking of it.
I was walking inside the bookstore when I came across the book "I Kissed Dating Goodbye"...Hmm..The title itself is intriguing for me. Not that there is something unusual with the title. I remember the other book that I bought a few months back, A Quest for Love by Elizabeth Elliot. Its one of the good and inspirational books especially to all single people.
Almost everyday, we are in search of something, someone who can make us complete. Its as if every place we go, every person we meet is a candidate for Ms. Right, Mr. Right. Hard as it may seem for us to admit but the world we live in is indeed a very dangerous place to be and love is one of the difficult game people play. In same way as saying that finding the right person is one the most difficult things to do especially when some people already think its next to impossible.
But just like what Elliot tried to point out in the book. We don't have to be preys in the world of predators. We dont have to keep looking, searching and waiting. The more we force something to happen the more we fall into a dangerous pit.
I myself agree that we should just wait for that someone whom God knows who, to come into our lives. Just like the funny saying, you dont have to kiss a bunch of losers just to get the right one. AS for now, I will focus in improving my self, focus on self-growth because I know at God's best reason, right time and place we will meet.
When the right one comes, I know its something that is heavenly blessed, something that is based on true love and respect, something endless and true.
It was a bit late when we left Manila at around 8:30 pm. Whew... I couldnt imagine the traffic. Past nine in the evening we were set for the trip to one of the nicest destination. Hmm.. not to mention that we travelled by land lol not that im complaining but seriously when you are stuck in the car for how many hours, i dont know how else to be comfortable...But i guess its one of the most memorable trips ever..
STOPOVER. We had lots of that haha..I think I couldnt count how many gas stations. But aside from going to the comfort room, stopovers can also be a good place to relax and have some short talk while drinking..a cup of coffee...
ACCOMODATION. When you're out on a trip one question will always pop out of your mind. Where will I stay? Well some are worried because of budget constraints but sine in my case its free any place will do. But I never thought of staying in a very cozy hotel. We stayed in Hotel Venezia based on my assessment one of the nicest hotel I've been to. Its small but very cozy and comfortable.
FOOD. Whenever I go somewhere, its definitely a must for me to try to eat local dishes that are famous in that particular place. Im a bit disappointed with the laing ang bicol express but at least the last restaurant with local bicolano dishes we visited gave me a high utility...
LANDSACPE. Indeed, Bicol is a God-given place. Nature filled province, perfect shaped volcano, kind people,and a lush green surrounding wow... Id love to come back here once in a while...Its nice to take pictures especially when your on top.
PEOPLE. Lastly, I wouldnt forget the people who were with me during the trip.Though its a bit difficult but we enjoyed the road trip a lot...
And right now im planning to have my next trip..hehehe
James 1:2-4
I guess all of us will come to a certain point where will we lose our faith in a person. Most often than not we sometimes end up realizing that we really dont know the person after all. The saddening fact is that you'll never know when a pretending good person turns into a deceitful asshole..hehehe..
My choice of words are becoming a bit harsh. But I guess thats a good way for me to hail out my sentiments, at least im not the type who mentions specific names...haha Thats more frightening..
Consider it a great joy, my brothers, whenever you experience various trials,
knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. But endurance must do its complete work, so that you may be mature and complete, lacking nothing.
Amidst all of these things, I was able to have the opportunity to learn much more. Despite the fact that we can sometimes lose our faith in faithless people, we can always turn into someone who will never falter, and that is - God, Jesus Christ our Saviour.
In a world full of people who can deceive and hurt you, there is one guarantee that in His arms you are safe. So matter how many times you've been fooled or hurt and no matter how many instances you thought you have lost faith, just think of God and his endless and immeasureable love for us.
When a door closes, a window opens...
It might sound like an old cliche but its one of those usual sayings that makes sense.
When you feel like you're carrying the burden of the whole world, God will really find a way to give you hope.
For the past few months, I've been getting restless since after graduation I for once in my life didnt know where to go. Yes, I was confused and had no idea what i really want in life. I guess its what they call the post-graduation-you-are-unemployed syndrome haha..lol
For many months I together with some of my friends were in search of a job. Some of them actually got the jobs easily and so we were left behind. Wrong decisions will always be part of the game. Unfortunately, I was a victim. I used to have a job offer but i turned it down for some stupid reason, I myself would want to keep hahaha
As days pass by, I can feel that Im getting loathsome not only in finding a job but in general, my whole life. At the lowest point of my life, God gave a way for me to revive myself once again.
And now, as I start to build the stepping stones of my career. Yes, I am up for the challenge I've been through a lot already and I know with the help of God, I can do anything...everything...
At this point of my life, I've realized that there are still many things to do, to accomplish, to learn...Yeah, i still have a very long way to go..
Though in many years of my existence here on earth, even until now I cant really say that I have achieved something great. I have finished schooling, yes it can be one of those achievements but its just a small part of what I want to achieve in life...
My friends would often say that we are all not getting any younger..Probably they are right, in same way as all of us are already starting to build the foundation of our dreams...
What do we want to do many years from now?Where do we want to go?Whom do we want to spend our lives with? THhese are but just some of the endless questions that we contemplate...
hmm...What do i want to do? I'm a person with high hopes and dreams in life. I dont limit myself to what is available, existing; I like exploring new heights, reach a much higher place or even delve into the impossible. I enjoy learning new things. The usual routine ways of doing something would bore me to hell..haha..
Where do I want to go?Hmm... Defnitely I have always wanted to be in a happy, stable and comfortable place, it would cover all of the aspect of my life my spiritual, financial,emotional and even physical aspects.
The last question..haha which I personally think is a bit difficult one...Aside from family, of course all of us would want to be with the person of whom we could spean our lifetime with. I guess its still too early, I'm still very young to actually consider these matters..haha But eventually we will reach there...
I miss writing blogs...This is sure one way for me to open up my thoughts once again..hehe....
Tossing and turning around the bed... staring endlessly into the wilderness of the vast invisible space..sighing and panting as my thoughts start to drown me... Yeah,those are the scenarios of me at night..And I guess those observances only lead me to conclude..that there is something that is bothering me, something that is beyond the usual, beyond the ordinary.
I've never let my emotions and my negative thoughts to drain me. But this one is way much different. I feel like every action I will choose to take and every words I will utter would result to different outcomes i am not sure whether would like or not.
Stupid that I am even contemplating these questions and these matters of the heart when in fact I allowed myself to be vulnerable in the first place. Sometimes I am thinking if I can risk something, if i can risk my heart- unguarded, defenseless will I find the one I am looking for? There goes the circular and never ending question again...Taking risks doesn't guarantee that you will get what you want neither revealing your soft spot shows that you are weak.
I guess too much fear is just clouding my mind. What continues to bother me is the questions that I myself can't even answer, answers i will find as events unfold. Early as it may appear to anticipate whatever thing that might happen but it's worth a try, it's worth the risk. After all its my faith that would save me in the end. So I am going for something that makes me happy... let alone God do whatever he thinks whats best for me...
I passed my business law subject and my economic history subject. I've been praying for those two subjects for the past few days. Plus, I was also able to finish my thesis and accomplished my clearance forms.Its almost over and done. April 25 is the day I've been waiting for...
I should be super happy...After all, my hardwork finally pays off... But why do i feel like Im indifferent?
haha..yeah right...now im starting to apply some economics concept here..lol...
Probably because I am worrying about what will happen next after graduation...
The real world awaits after april 25...
But either way I know God is there to strengthen me...
AJA!